I Knew It !!!

nexy said...
52. I have traveled to every state in the U.S. except Alaska, Idaho, & Nebraska

i've been to nebraska. the state motto: "nebraska; bring something to do".

"The 5 instruments I play are; guitar, bass, banjo, steel pedal guitar, and keyboards."

i think i may have been you, and you me, in a previous life. i also play (or used to - i always say that i used to be a musician, but now i'm just an instrument owner) guitar, bass, keyboards, drums, and the recorder. all my life, i've had this compulsion to play steel pedal guitar - now i know why.

54. I love to ride my motorcycle, but everytime I get on it, I wonder if that's the day I'll die on it.

i think that i'll either die on a motocycle, or in a plane crash - either way, i know that i'll die in fire. i think i'd rather die on a motorcycle - it's closer to the ground, and carries much less fuel. and besides, they are so much more fun to ride than a plane. and so far, it's the only activity i've found that's actually better than sex.

87. I love Nashville, TN

this was my second choice of places to live, after phoenix, az, where i am now.

you know, if we actually meet, it might set off some kind of matter/anti-matter annihilation thing. perhaps that's the fire i see in my own death.

12:06 AM

Nexy, let me tell you.... I have always had a bone chilling fear; to the point that it used to be a nightly nightmare - that I will die in a fire. In fact, sometimes I would actually sit and cognizantly consider whether dying in a fire, or drowning would be worse.

When I enter a new place, whether a club, a theater, a restaurant, someone's house... the first thing I do is establish for myself where the exits are... ALL the exits.

I suppose a shrink would have a field day with me, but I suppose a psychic would be more accurate.

This Might Cause An Accident!

'Nuff Said !

In Answer To Lisa......

Lisa posted a comment to my "100 Things" list:

Writer said...
insightful. you've been through a lot!
care to elaborate on #83?

#83 says, "I will not date black men."

Interesting that you zeroed in on this Lisa. Interesting because in the past, I've questioned myself on this too. My neverending question to myself is, "Sybil, are you a racist because of your dating preferences?"

After years of introspect, the answer is a resounding No. I am in fact, not racist. The truth of the matter is, I am simply not attracted to black men; in much the same way that I'm not attracted to blonde, or redheaded men.

Why then, one could ask, didn't you note that you will not date blonde, or redheaded men in your list?

That's a fair question.

The answer is, because stating publicly that I will not date black men relieves me of my self imposed guilt for not wanting to date black men.

Does that not make sense? Let me try to explain...

To my way of thinking, if I have no qualms about freely admitting that I won't date a black man, then I most certainly must NOT be racist, and am simply stating a dating preference.

...... Me thinks I doth protest too much.......

Which brings me back to my age old nagging question.....

Am I a racist?

I hope not.

Idea Stolen From.....

Stellina (who doesn't want to be linked!)

When all else fails, make a list!

Here are 100 things about me. ME.

1. I am 46 yrs old
2. I was born on Halloween
3. I am a quintessential Scorpio (with all it implies)
4. I am generous to a fault
5. I am therefore, often taken advantage of
6. I have a freakishly high I.Q. - 169
7. I am a member of Mensa
8. I have a dozen tattoos
9. I have been married 3 times
10. I am not embarrassed by that
11. I had a very lousy childhood
12. I don't use my lousy childhood as an excuse to fail
13. I have an older brother, and a younger sister
14. I haven't spoken to my sister in 3 years
15. I don't intend to speak to her ever again
16. I feel closer to certain friends than most of my family
17. I experienced my first broken heart at the age of 46
18. I travel extensively due to my job
19. I will retire at the age of 50
20. I will be a multi-millionaire when I retire
21. I am worth MUCH more dead, than alive
22. I am convinced I will die young
23. I've already lived longer than I expected to
24. I was molested as a child
25. I have 4 god-children
26. I haven't seen the youngest in 2 years
27. I love to sing
28. I weight 123 lbs, but when I look in the mirror, I see fat
29. I don't have an eating disorder
30. I drink Coors Light when I'm out drinking
31. I like to dance, but I don't because I'm self conscious
32. I lost the love of my life in 1987 to Cancer
33. I still miss him
34. I drive WAY WAY too fast
35. I am a terrible passenger & backseat driver
36. I can swim like a fish, but I have a fear of the water
37. I accelerated through high school & graduated at 15
38. I don't recommend doing that
39. I have 1 undergrad, and 3 post grad degrees; none of which I use in my job
40. I didn't finish paying off student loans until I was 42
41. I got married at 17 (the first time)
42. I don't regret not having children
43. I am a loyal friend
44. I am not a loyal wife
45. I am often mistaken for gay, but I don't know why
46. I am in the process of having 3 tattoos removed
47. I am unhappy more often than not
48. I know why, but as yet haven't found the strength to change things
49. I have a ferocious temper, but it takes a lot to get me there
50. I am slightly O.C.D.ish
51. I print like a typewriter. Small, even, perfectly uniform.
52. I have traveled to every state in the U.S. except Alaska, Idaho, & Nebraska
52. I have been to 12 European countries, and Japan
53. I hate traveling now
54. I love to ride my motorcycle, but everytime I get on it, I wonder if that's the day I'll die on it.
55. I've always been obssessed with death & dying
56. I at one time planned on being an undertaker
57. I have psychic abilities
58. I blame that on being born on Halloween
59. I am currently celibate by choice
60. I love New England Boiled Dinners. It's my favorite meal of all.
61. I truly enjoy DJ'g. DJ "S" is my alter ego
62. I believe I am a very VERY old soul
63. I believe that my karma is just about complete, and this is my last go-round
64. I have green eyes, but wear blue contacts
65. I'm looking into having a facelift
66. I smoke, but wish I didn't
67. I was completely faithful in my last relationship, for the first time in my life
68. I was treated like shit in return
69. I have all my teeth
70. I have a name tattooed on my lower back which I'm about to have covered up
71. I joined an online dating service
72. I have yet to meet anyone "normal" from it
73. I play 5 instruments
74. I pay my ex-husband alimony
75. I'm planning a trip to Florida to meet someone I've never spoken live to
76. I read Stellina's blog faithfully, because I was living vicariously through her antics.
77. I actually understand Einstein's theory of relativity - this makes me somewhat of a freak.
78. I once had a lesbian fall in love with me - I had no idea she was either gay, or in love with me
79. I broke her heart - and ended the friendship
80. I used to have a propensity for dating married men. I'm OVER that.
81. I've always been attracted to older men, and still am today
82. I have a friend who was once a prostitute, and she brags about it to everyone
83. I will not date black men
84. I gamble too much
85. I would like to get married one more time - for the last time
86. I am seriously thinking about leaving New England
87. I love Nashville, TN
88. I've always wanted to work for Disney
89. I am still operating on Windows 98 on my personal PC
90. I think Nexy & I knew each other in a previous life
91. I have seen ghosts
92. I will not allow an Ouija board in my house - they're evil, and I've seen one work
93. I eat only chocolate ice cream
94. I am a fantastic cook, but I refuse to cook for one
95. I don't have a primary care doctor. I need to get one.
96. I often wake up feeling badly hungover, even though I didn't drink the night before
97. I have a mean streak, which I work hard to keep squelched.
98. I have a memory like an elephant, and if you screwed me, I'll never forget it
99. I am fascinated with different religions
100.I read the bible for it's literary content, not it's religious content

Catchin' Up

Well... here it is Monday, and I'm draggin' ass like you read about. I think it's abundantly clear that I overdid it this weekend. Too much food, too much beer, too much everything.

This morning I had to get up at the crack of dawn to take my Dupree to his first day on the new job. He has 3 weeks of training - days. 7:30-3:30. Then after that he starts his regular shift- 1:30-10pm. That I can deal with much easier.

He & I are both waiting (impatiently) for that apartment to become vacant... the one that's right near his job. When it becomes available, he's OUTTA HERE... and we won't be lettin' the screen door hit him in the ass on the way out.

After I got back from delivering Baby Huey to work, the Ex (Quasi) called needing a ride to drop off his truck for brakes. I picked him up and delivered him to his destination, then he called back and said he needed another ride to go get the truck at noon. I just got back from THAT jaunt.

It seems like that's all I'm doing today- playing taxi!

Yesterday I was supposed to meet Stellina & her husband to go on a motorcycle ride. I never got there. Instead, I had WAY too much to drink at the birthday party I went to first, and then..... forget it, no way could I ride a bike. In fact, it wasn't until an hour ago that I even realized she had called me yesterday. Talk about being out of it! Sorry girl!

Today the weather's not so great. Hot & humid, and looking like rain any second. Can't take the bike out in this. I hate getting caught in the rain on the bike. It hurts!

I have some live nibbles on my dating service thing again. What's funny is, this morning I got an email from this dude I went to high school with. I recognized him, but he didn't recognize me (probably because I don't post a picture!)... and I had to laugh because I couldn't stand the prick then - I sure as hell ain't interested now... 30 years later. Pfft! But there are 3 or 4 others that I'm kind of interested in. So, we'll see what this week brings.

I've got a trip this week to Cincinnati. When I get back from that, I'm going to plan the trip to Florida to meet the Captain. I'll fill you in.

Saturday night I was invited to the officer's club at the Newport Naval Base. Wooohooo! Talk about an over abundance of hunky hotties. And all of them officers! My my my... I sure had a good time. That's all I'm sayin' about Saturday night.

Well.... I've got 2.5 hours until Sybil's taxi service needs to go and pick up Dupree. Think I'll use the time to take a well needed nap.

Ciao~!

Bleh !

Man! This heat has me so I don't want to do a blessed thing. Even sitting still in front of the air conditioner it's hot!

My Dupree is STILL here.
This is the sum total of his day:
1. Get up at the crack of noon.
2. Stink out the bathroom.
3. Feed his face.
4. Plop his immenseness on my poor living room chair.
5. Channel surf ad-nauseam.
6. Feed his face.
7. Channel surf some more.
8. Feed his face.
9. Go to bed.

And it's exactly the same, without variation, day in and day out. I'm ready to commit murder!

This morning I got out early and went apartment hunting for him (because LORD KNOWS he won't do it himself.) I found something perfect. A ten minute walk from his job, nice one floor applianced - heat & electricity included. $775.00 per month. I think it's perfect... only thing is, it won't be available until the end of September.

My FRIGGIN' LORD! How am I going to make it til the end of September?

Meanwhile, my personal life is just as boring and messed up as it was the last time I blogged. Yay me.

I'm still planning on making that trip to Florida, but it looks like it's going to have to wait until September due to work schedule conflicts.

My buddy's back in Acushnet, so I'm going to TRY to get together with her & her husband for a motorcycle ride this Sunday... weather permitting.

I just renewed my subscription to Match. Things are considerably slower for me there than they were the first time around. I'll chalk it up to everyone being busy and active because it's summer. Although, with this heat, I can't fathom how anyone could want to do anything except lay flat on their back and try not to generate more heat! Shit... even blogs are not being updated. It's just too damn hot for anything.